Weight of Stuff

Adrian Borland & the Citizens

I’ve got a dawn in my heart

Twenty-three years ago today, Adrian took his own life. He suffered from a relentless, spiraling schizoid-affective disorder and heard voices in his head. From his lyrics and music, from his candid interviews — it was clear Adrian was doing all he could to overcome this. And he wrote so many authentic songs about rising above the darkness. After the Sound was forced to disband, Adrian did overcome and rebound, making his first solo album called ALEXANDRIA with a new band he called the Citizens. This is a brilliant track from it, a song I hold very close to me and it’s so beautiful to play it this morning.

There's a weight of stuff that's gone before
It seem so hard to ignore
It's true, it's true
And I find it seeping into words I speak
Am I corrupted or just plain weak
No, but it's true, it's true
Oh it's so hard to start again
So hard to make the break that's clean
It's true, it's true
I've got to learn to live with what's at stake
And wade on through those past mistakes
Crawling out from under weight of stuff
Finding myself tonight, dawn in sight
I've got dawn in my heart